The Monster InsideI am always Cold,I am always Sad,I am always Afraid,I am always Depressed,I am always Hurt,I am always Breaking,I am always Me,But I will always be a monster.
The World As I See ItMy eyes are always drooping.Not because of sleepiness,But because of the sadness in my heart.They are always half open, half closed.I see half the world around me.I can see half of life.I don't feel joy as I used to.Not as eyes closed,But as eyes opened to new things.Those eyes slowly closed of emotions.Love,Happiness,Sadness,Depression,I never aloud myself to feel these things.I never felt anything.I was a rock.Motionless,Stiff,And cold.I was cold everyday.Like a winter breeze never ending.I was emotionless,And never aloud myself to be free,Or to be the child I wanted to be.
What is Happiness?"I will never experience 'true' happiness"Is what myself tells me.Most times I believe it,Other times I agree.My self esteem is very low,And my happiness isn't high,But I act happy so others can be.On the inside,I am nothing but a monster.A monster looking for happiness,And a reason for living.
Painful LoveIt hurts...All over, my body aches.It aches of sadness.It aches of depression.It aches of betrayal.It aches of love.I am afraid to love.I am afraid to be loved.Or am I afraid of rejection?In all my life,I have always been rejected.By old friends,By family,And those I held dear to my heart.
Permanent EmotionThe pain inside me can never be healed.Where happiness once lied,There is now depression.I blame no one but me,For these are my own mistakes.I cannot fix them,And neither can you.For this emotion is apart of me,Forever.
same love, many languagestwo heartbeats are exactly like two mirrors facing eachother,the pains are simular but different and continue infinitelyHātobīto wa, seikaku ni tagaini taikō suru 2tsu no mirā no yōna mono itami wa itsuwari naku,kotonatte ite, mugen ni tsudzukeruzwei Herzschlägen sind genau wie zwei Spiegel einander zugewandt sind,die Schmerzen simular aber anders und weiterhin unendlich